EarThQuakE!

Earthquake! ^_^

so exciting! I think this is like the biggest earthquake to ever hit Singapore lah! Apparantly people are swarming out of the CBD area, school kids are having "fire drill", SGH also kenna evacuated, Talkback (Stomp thread) is being flooded, Hardwarezone.com's threads are being flooded and everybody is talking about it.

wahaha. The Newsroom is in an uproar!

(p.s. There are rumours that ultraman and godzilla are finally on a rampage)

Its kinda hilarious.

x_X

hmm... At 11:46 am, Southern Sumatra kenna earthquake. Less then five minutes can feel liaw. Talk about FAST.

*plays severely scratched version of "The Sinking of Singapore" pirated DVD spoof*

xD

Hmmm... ok. This is my first nonsensical post that I've written since The Sundering a.k.a 22 Febuary 2007.

I feel like doing quizzes... haha


bleah~ I hope he's doing ok at work. With all the chemicals around him... x_X

i need somebody... anybody...

its like a vacuum inside... i need somebody i can hold onto and cry...


he's not there anymore...

wake up andrew...

HE'S GONE!!!

He doesnt want it back... the little hope you had has faded..


you're abandoned...

nobody loves you anymore....

you should just die you know...


you're so stupid... sacrificing so much to know it will end..

why do you keep breaking your heart over and over again?

you know that aj relationships NEVER EVER last forever


it will inevitably end..

just looking at him will make you cry now.

you wimp.

you used to be able to stand up for yourself..


what has happened to you?

i hate you andrew.

i hate you so much.


i hate. i hate. i hate...


you're sick and tired of everything. friends, family, work, and yourself..

now you dont even have him. the only pillar you held on to has crumbled...


you lost faith.

God is a million miles away now









He can't hear you.

you know that?


where is he now when your heart needs healing?

is he there for you to hold?

is he there for you to cry on?


nothing is truly worth its value.

You are useless.



USELESS!!!!!!

You're scared of failure huh?


Let me tell you now..

YOU FAILED!!!

YOU FAILED!!!!

YOU FAILED YOU FAILED YOU FAILED!!!!


so what if you score well in exams

so what if you do well at work

so what if you're talented

so what if you're good looking.



even if you think you are, IT DOESNT MATTER!!


you're alone. you're gone.

goner. "poof" you know?


because you have nobody left beside you.













andrew sits down and cry... like how he has been for the last 30 hours...
he holds the cookie monster and cries some more...
he misses his cookie monster... he can't sleep because his mind is wrecked..

andrew and dominic are no longer together..


to all those who want dominic, i'm sure you all must be really happy now.

to all those who believed in this relationship, i'm sorry, you all were misguided.

to all those who hated me because of the relationship, rejoice, its over.

to all those who thought i invested too much time and money in the relationship, smirk, because i have nothing left.

to all those who think that my heart will learn to love again, sorry, its exothermally frozen beyond melting

to all those who hated the relationship, be at peace, for there is nothing left to hate.

to all those who told me that this relationship will never last, you were right, it couldnt last.




to all those who were there for us during the good times and the bad,

i'm really sorry...

i've let you all down...

I've let myself down..

I've let God down, even... because I wanted to prove that it could work... that 2 guys could really love each other and last till we see you again..







*blank stare*

everything is over.......................................................................................................................

I think I've cried until I've no more tears left...

I'm going crazy... i think...

I'm talking to myself... I'm trying to convince myself that none of this actually happen...

I'm living in one of those uncontrollable nightmares where I'll wake up soon... anytime...


I've never ever EVER EVER EVER EVER loved anybody so much before..

nor liked anybody so much before...


THE CHAPTER ENDS..

everything ends...


but I'm unwilling to let go of that small hope that he might love me again...



help me..

i just wanna die.......

everything is over.....

Its over...

I'm broken... Emotionally, financially, mentally and physially..

everything is over...

I planned everything around him... and everything is shattered...

dreams... plans.. hopes...


I planned the chalet for him... never thought that it would be the biggest nightmare of my life...



its over...

he didnt even take back the pooh bear that I bought for him..








... i havn't cried so long in my life before.....







i miss him so badly......

*cries*

Seeya~!

ANDREW WILL BE AT THE CHALET FROM 21-23rd OF FEBUARY.

NO BLOG ENTRIES TILL THEN!! =)

LOCATION : DOWNTOWN EAST 1837 BLK H




x)

Chalet in 3 Days!

Work is getting pretty boring... with little incentive...

Never thought I'd be sick of seeing Final Cut Pro over and over everyday....

... sigh... I was telling Dominic just now that I was feeling kinda depressed. I see the same thing over and over everyday, do the same routine over and over everyday...

No time to spend with people....

Working life is really different from school life... I guess I finally understand when people say that working life transform you into a stiff, unliving robot...

I really miss school life.... =/


I was editing this video today called the "Tim and Ben show" its about this two secondary school boys doing this thing called Vlogging..
Every moment I worked on that video, the more I miss school life.... Carefree, friends around all the time, no monetary concerns...

They have a timetable that changes 5 times a week... but my schedule is : edit-edit-edit-edit........

it kinda sucks... really...


Currently the agape youth boys are at my house playing computer, PS2, having a real good time together, supposedly chilling out with each other thru the night...
I've got to go to sleep.

or I wont be able to wake up for work tomorrow.

They will be playing when I wake up for work tomorrow,
they will be playing when I go to sleep tonight...

tell me how not to be envious.


I'm doing a job that is giving me really.... really little... *sigh*...

Even Dominic is earning more then me...


Bleah~ At least I managed to get 3 days off this week, on Wednesday, Thursday and Friday...

I'd better start planning for what to bring for the chalet... the chalet is actually meant for Dominic, to let him enjoy one last time before being drafted into a money-less internship...

problem is.... he doesnt really seem concerned about the chalet...

hurts..... kinda...

nvm.. I'll continue on myself...

stuff to bring for the chalet :

Equipment
- 4 sets of clothes
- suntan oil
- swimming trunks
- towel
- slippers
- gas stove with pot (if possible)
- soup ladel
- butter brush
- plastic plates
- plastic cups
- plastic cutlery
- paper napkins
- charcoal
- styrofoam container
- drink dispenser
- big black plastic bags
- ordinary plastic bags

Food
- Chicken wings
- Sausages
- Crabstick
- Stingray???
- Fishball/Meatballs
- Corn
- Sweet potato
- Butter
- Mayonnaise
- Chilli/Tomato
- Instant drink mixes
- Ice
- Cup noodles

Pig. Year.

Happy Pigging Year people.



dominic is not picking up my call again. *fumes*